If you find it difficult to obey the bitter truth of the word of God as a Christian, it is because the word of God is not meant for you. Matthew 19:11 "But he said unto them, All men cannot receive this saying, save they to whom it is given."
Unfortunately, it is the same word of God you are disobeying because of your flesh, that is able to save your soul from hell fire. James 1:21 "Wherefore lay apart all filthiness and superfluity of naughtiness, and receive with meekness the engrafted word, which is able to save your souls."
Repent today, believe and obey the whole word of God, be humble before the LORD, and it shall be well with your soul.
God bless you.