The Video That Rescued Rachel Haight From Sex Addition

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I Was Once A SEX Addict - Rachel Haight

I Was Once A SEX Addict
By: Rachel Haight

I used to be a sex addict. I loved sex more than food. Sometimes I would need it 5 times a day. My life revolved around it. No man could satisfy me.
I had to have multiple men on a list or on stand by. Everything I did was some how related to getting a man and having sex.
BY THE GRACE OF GOD I HAVE BEEN SET FREE IN JESUS NAME. No more do I hunger for sex now I hunger for Jesus.
My life revolves around pleasing and obeying Jesus. I knew Jesus before but I never knew holiness.
My church told me as long as I believe in Jesus I am going to heaven. My pastor was aware of my problem and told me God will give me grace to over come.
Not until I watched the testimony of a women going to heaven and hell and have up makeup, jewelry, pants, and all the stuff that God hates was I set free.
TODAY I AM FREE INDEED. Now let's holds fast until the end. Pray for grace because its only by his grace and mercy will we make it through to the end.

Culled from https://www.facebook.com/rachel.haight.94?refid=52

A Note To The Image Of God Called Woman 2

A NOTE TO THE IMAGE OF GOD CALLED WOMAN 2
By: Adom Ofori-Asenso
Monday, 26th August, 2013.

Woman! Take the speck out of your own eye before you take the log out of someone's eye. When your loved ones in Christ rebuke you, you refer to them Matt 7:1 (Don't Judge me) but you are rather guity of Matt 7:1

The topic is not a quotation of Matt 7:5 (You hypocrite, first take the plank out of your own eye, and then you will see clearly to remove the speck from your brother's eye). By God's grace, you will understand why the topic is this way. The main text is Romans 2:1-16 which is given below this note for reference.
The world we live in has its standards, you as an individual have your own standards and the Almighty God has his standards. When you are in Christ, you live by only one standard and that is the standard of the Almighty God and you die to the standard of the world and that of yourself. The sad story is that, many believers in Christ, live by the standards of this world and that of theirs.
Between these latter categories, the more dangerous category are those who claim they are not living according to the worlds standard and that they are living according to the standards of the Almighty God when in actual fact, they are living by their own standards.
All sin is sin. There is no big sin or small sin and the end of all sin is one ie death (Romans 6:23). The fact that you are doing something in moderation does not make it right. Rom 2:1 tells us clearly that you comdemn yourself when you rebuke someone of the very thing you are engaged in. And the overall judge who is the Almighty God will judge every soul based on one thing; TRUTH (vars 2)and will not show FAVORITISM (vrs 11).

You call yourself a christian and you frown  or even think of others as prostitutes when you see them with three or more earrings in one ear. You counsel them to change their ways and put on only one earring. Likewise, you see it ungodly to pierce and fix jewelries in the nose, tongue, navel, lips etc but acceptable to pierce the ears and fix jewelries. Aren't you being a hypocrite? The same way you have pierced your ears and fixed earrings is the same way another person has pierced the nose, tongue, navel etc and fixed jewelries and God will not judge with favoritism. When you see someone with five rings on the same hand, you see it as ungodly, yet you have one or two rings on your hand. When someone puts on an anklet, the first thought that registers in your mind is 'ungodly'. You may even try to counsel the individual to repent from wearing the anklet.
Meanwhile, you the sister in Christ has bracelets and bangles dangling around your wrist. The fact that you have put it on your wrist does not make it right either. Do you realise you are being a hypocrite and setting your own standards? You see someone who has dyed the hair red, green, yellow or even multicolored and it registers promptly to you that such have missed the way to church. Yet you sit in the pew with highlights and its ok.
You may probably have dyed your whole hair black or put in a few highlights and labled it ok. You hate to see tatoos on others, yet, you occasionally make temporary designs on your body. Because yours is not permanent, it is accepted.
Many are those who have condemed the actions of Micheal Jackson for bleaching his skin. Yet, you have in your closet all the 'claires', 'fade outs' and the '2% hydroquinone'. Your complexion today is different from your childhood pictures. And satan has succeeded in decieving you with the twin sister of 'bleaching' called 'toning'.
You hear of a politician who has embezzled a huge amount of money and you quickly sentenced him to jail in your apartment,  when he has not even made his first appearance before the court. Yet, you see nothing wrong with picking a pen which does not belong to you and keeping it forever. Aren't they all stealing?
When you hear someone listening to Wayne, Jay Z, Lady gaga etc, you tell them that is wordly and does not please God. Yet you have a list of RnB, 'cools', hiplife, all the Whitney Houston, Celine Dion etc and thats ok.
Don't you know God has a standard for believers when it comes to music? Keep on living by your own standards and you will meet the ONE whom you have professed to live by His standards.

Ephesians 5: 19-20
19 Speaking to one another with psalms, hymns, and songs from the Spirit. Sing and make music from your heart to the Lord,
20 always giving thanks to God the Father for everything, in the name of our Lord Jesus Christ.
Our God is not a God of double standards. Therefore, if someone who has been transformed by the Word of God in order to escape God's judgement and stands on the authority of the Word of God to bring you to the knowledge of the truth, he is not judging you. On the other hand, when you see everything wrong with an exaggeration of what you are also engaged in, then you are passing judgement on the same things you do and you will not escape the God's judgement because His judgements are without favoritism (Romans 2:3, 11). Repent before its too late.

Sometimes you may think you are right with God because you have answered prayers, good health, good academic achievements, speak in tongues, prophesy, heal the sick ect. This is where you need understanding of the God you serve.
Romans 2:4 (see below) makes us understand that God is rich in kindness, tolerance and patients to the sinner, not because he endorses his evil ways but for only one reason and that is to lead the sinner to repentance. Luke 6:35 also tells us that '......he is kind to the ungrateful and wicked'. So when you enjoy these riches from God, examine yourself to find out if these blessings are ones God intends to lead you to repentance or blessings as a result of being transformed into the righteousness of God through the submission of your will to the Lordship of Jesus Christ (Psalm 91). Whiles these blessings lasts, God requires that you repent before you reach His throne of judgement.

Romans 2:5-6
5 But because of your stubbornness and your unrepentant heart, you are storing up wrath against yourself for the day of God’s wrath, when his righteous judgment will be revealed.
6 God “will repay each person according to what they have done.”

Romans 2:1-16 New International Version (NIV).
1 God’s Righteous Judgment.

1 You, therefore, have no excuse, you who pass judgment on someone else, for at whatever point you judge another, you are condemning yourself, because you who pass judgment do the same things.
2 Now we know that God’s judgment against those who do such things is based on truth.
3 So when you, a mere human being, pass judgment on them and yet do the same things, do you think you will escape God’s judgment?
4 Or do you show contempt for the riches of his kindness, forbearance and patience, not realizing that God’s kindness is intended to lead you to repentance?
5 But because of your stubbornness and your unrepentant heart, you are storing up wrath against yourself for the day of God’s wrath, when his righteous judgment will be revealed.
6 God “will repay each person according to what they have done.”
7 To those who by persistence in doing good seek glory, honor and immortality, he will give eternal life. 8 But for those who are self-seeking and who reject the truth and follow evil, there will be wrath and anger.
9 There will be trouble and distress for every human being who does evil: first for the Jew, then for the Gentile;
10 but glory, honor and peace for everyone who does good: first for the Jew, then for the Gentile.
11 For God does not show favoritism.
12 All who sin apart from the law will also perish apart from the law, and all who sin under the law will be judged by the law.
13 For it is not those who hear the law who are righteous in God’s sight, but it is those who obey the law who will be declared righteous.
14 (Indeed, when Gentiles, who do not have the law, do by nature things required by the law, they are a law for themselves, even though they do not have the law.
15 They show that the requirements of the law are written on their hearts, their consciences also bearing witness, and their thoughts sometimes accusing them and at other times even defending them.)
16 This will take place on the day when God judges people’s secrets through Jesus Christ, as my gospel declares.

Glory be to God. Thank you Lord Jesus. Thank you precious Holy Spirit.
By God's grace, the next topic will be Woman! know that satan has secrets upon which his deception thrives but God reveals them all to those who diligently seek the Lord.
The specific issues on jewelries, make up, fake hair, alcohol etc will be tackled in due course as the Holy Spirit leads. It is important we build an undersatnding and thats exactly what is going on.

WHILES I TELL YOU THESE THINGS, I AM KEEPING MY OWN SELF IN THE LINE THROUGH THE SUFFICIENT GRACE AND MERCY OF OUR LORD JESUS CHRIST LEST I MYSELF MISS HEAVEN.

Culled from https://www.facebook.com/notes/adom-ofori-asenso/a-note-to-the-image-of-god-called-woman-2/623922417638529/?refid=17

A Note To The Image Of God Called Woman 1

A NOTE TO THE IMAGE OF GOD CALLED WOMAN
By: Adom Ofori-Asenso
Saturday, 24th August, 2013.

Woman! Know your place in Satan's Strategy: The Garden of Eden Scenario (Genesis 2 and 3)
Genesis 2:15-17
15 The Lord God took the man and put him in the Garden of Eden to work it and take care of it.
16 And the Lord God commanded the man, "You are free to eat from any tree in the garden;
17 but you must not eat from the tree of the knowledge of good and evil, for when you eat from it you will certainly die".
Genesis 2:23-24
23 The man said, "This is now bone of my bones and flesh of my flesh; she shall be called 'woman', for she was taken out of man."
24 That is why a man leaves his father and mother and is united to his wife, and they become one flesh.
Genesis 3:1-6
1 Now the serpent was more crafty than any of the wild animals the Lord God had made. He said to the woman, "Did God really say, 'You must not eat from any tree in the garden'?"
2 The woman said to the serpent, "We may eat fruit from the trees in the garden,
3 but God did say, 'You must not eat fruit from the tree that is in the middle of the garden, and you must not touch it, or you will die'"
4 "You will not certainly die," the serpent said to the woman.
5 " For God knows that when you eat from it your eyes will be opened, and you will be like God, knowing good and evil".
6 When the woman saw that the fruit of the tree was good for food and pleasing to the eye, and also desirable for gaining wisdom, she took some and ate it. She also gave some to her husband who was with her, and he ate it.
Genesis 3:16
"......Your desire will be for your husband, and he will rule over you."

I pray that your eyes will be opened to the truth that ever since satan succeeded with the woman to cause the fall of the whole human race, he has been upgrading this strategic tool with the woman throughout the generations. Once satan gets the woman, the man is already in the net; that's his master plan. (Here, the spirit of satan is in the serpent).
In our first scripture (Genesis 2:15-17), we realise that the instruction God gave was very clear and concise. There was no ambiguity; God is not the author of confusion. Every confusion comes from satan. God clearly said; "You are free to eat from any tree in the garden; but you must not eat from the tree of the knowledge of good and evil...."
Lets look at satan's question; "Did God really say, 'You must not eat from any tree in the garden'?". Also, when God said; "You will certainly die" (Gen 2:17), satan said the exact opposite; "You will certainly not die" (Gen 3:4).
Satan, the father of all lies is always twisting the true message of God. From Gen 3:6, it is clear that the man and the woman were together.
But why did satan ignore the man and engaged the woman? Much cannot be said on that; however, from Gen 3:6, three things made the woman eat the fruit.
1. Good for food
2. Pleasing to the eye
3. Desirable for wisdom (to be like God; Gen 3:5).
Another lie satan chips in here (Gen 3:5) is "For God knows that when you eat it, your eyes will be opened and you will be like God".
However, Gen 2:16, God gave only one consequence of eating the fruit; "....you will certainly die". Satan has always been a challenger of God and he continues to instil that rebellion spirit in humanity.
God's instructions are straight forward. The reasons satan gives you to disobey God are always long and winding. Sometimes when you find yourself giving too many reasons for doing something someone points out to you in the Bible as an abomination or an act of disobedence; it pays to pause and think. Satan may be feeding your thoughts with lies to sway you away from obeying the commandements of God. Now let us look at how satan places the woman in his strategies.

Strategy 1:
Satan has turned women into little gods and creators, challenging the ONE and ONLY GOD and CREATOR of the universe. Remember, the forbidden tree had the same characteristics as the rest of the trees in the garden with the only exception that it gives knowledge of good and evil and the end result is death (Gen 2:9). Out of ignorance (in most cases and also because of deception), satan is enticing women with counterfeits of the original creation of God to make them feel they have gained knowledge of how to look better.
That is reaching out for what is forbidden and God promises you of one end which is death.

Strategy 2:
A look at Gen 2:23, indicates that, the woman was the central focus of the man. Hence, whiles the woman had her attention on the forbidden tree, the man also had his attention on the woman.
Another question to ask is: why didn't the man stop the woman? Remember, the instruction was given to the man before the woman was formed (Gen 2:16-17) and he was diligently obeying the instruction. Another question you may ask; how was he able to do that and where was satan at that time? Before the woman surfaced, man had his focus on God, so he could not bear in his heart to sin against God. When he shifted his attention to the woman, he ceased to value the instruction of God. Likewise, when the woman shifted her focus from God, and preoccupied herself with the forbidden tree, she ceased to value the instruction of God. What is common with the two is that, they both replaced the CREATOR with the CREATION.
Man is distracted by woman and woman by the cravings of this world. This strategy has succeeded perfectly for satan by attracting women with wordliness and automatically making men bow to these things through his able agents; WOMEN.
These strategies were upgraded after the fall. As soon as satan heard Gen 3:16; ".....Your desire will be for your husband, and he will rule over you", he upgraded the strategies by giving reasons for women to crave the world (the focus is on women. Men also do crave the world). Initially,it was the woman having her personal cravings and man being influenced because man craved for the woman. But after the fall, in addition to personal cravings, women also craved these things to get the attention of men ( Gen 3:16).
Hence, satan devices his seductive schemes and does not struggle with agents because women are ever ready to do anything to get the
attention of men (the target of the seduction).
So dear woman, where in satan's strategic plan do you find yourself? Or where have you signed a contract to be his agent? Satan has employed many women out of ignorance. The day you picked the counterfeit of the original is the day you signed a contract with satan and he will use you till you finally end up in hell fire with him. Anyone who thinks he is wiser that God (Satan's deceiving words of making you touch what is forbidden: to be like God Gen 3:5), will certainly die and will follow the author of rebellion in hell. Jesus loves you and calls you to repent of your ways before it is too late.
Glory be to God. Thank you Lord Jesus. Thank you precious Holy Spirit.
The first and second notes sets the stage. Remember, the Holy Spirit promised us a step by step learning process. By the God's grace, the Holy Spirit will enlighten us on the next topic with the title:
Woman! Take the speck out of your eye before you take the log out of someone's eye: When your loved ones rebuke you, you refer to them Matthew 7:1 (Don't judge Me!) but you are rather guilty of Matthew 7:1.
WHILES I TELL YOU THESE THINGS, I AM KEEPING MY OWN SELF IN THE LINE THROUGH THE SUFFICIENT GRACE AND MERCY OF OUR LORD JESUS CHRIST LEST I MYSELF MISS HEAVEN.
Culled from https://facebook.com/notes/adom-ofori-asenso/a-note-to-the-image-of-god-called-woman/622494464447991/?_rdr#623408987689872

Is The Body Of Christ Divided? Part 1

Is The Body Of Christ Divided? Part 1

Text:

John 10:30 I and my Father are one.

John 17:11 And now I am no more in the world, but these are in the world, and I come to thee. Holy Father, keep through thine own name those whom thou hast given me, that they may be one, as we are.

John 17:22 And the glory which thou gavest me I have given them; that they may be one, even as we are one:

Malachi 2:10 Have we not all one father? hath not one God created us? why do we deal treacherously every man against his brother, by profaning the covenant of our fathers?

Mark 12:32 And the scribe said unto him, Well, Master, thou hast said the truth: for there is one God; and there is none other but he:

Romans 3:30 Seeing it is one God, which shall justify the circumcision by faith, and uncircumcision through faith.

1 Corinthians 8:6 But to us there is but one God, the Father, of whom are all things, and we in him; and one Lord Jesus Christ, by whom are all things, and we by him.

Ephesians 4:6 One God and Father of all, who is above all, and through all, and in you all.

1 Timothy 2:5 For there is one God, and one mediator between God and men, the man Christ Jesus;

James 2:19 Thou believest that there is one God; thou doest well: the devils also believe, and tremble.

Almighty Father, as I present this message to your children, may we all be enlightened by the Holy Spirit for the understanding of this message in Jesus name. Take all the glory Lord in Jesus mighty name. Amen.

Brethren, I have always wondered and became very curious as a child of God, thinking if the Lord Jesus Christ, whom we Christians through the various denominational practices and beliefs claim to serve, obey, reverence, adore and worship and claimed to follow His Footsteps and teachings is actually the same God. I have however finds out that He is just the same God Deuteronomy 4:39.

My curiosity is simply borne out of the fact that, the differences between church A and church B in administration, beliefs and practices is not the bible because, the word of God is an inspired message 2 Peter 1:21 speaking the SAME THING to different people in different forms and ways Mark 16:16. The bible does not speak different things at the same time John 1:1.

It is not also Jesus Christ our Lord and Saviour, as He (Jesus) had instructed us (the church) to do as He had taught us John 13:15. Jesus gave us the commandment – to love Him and to keep His commandments John 14:15, 21; 15:10.

Likewise, it is not the Holy Spirit idea that church G and church H will be doing different things because Jesus said “he (Holy Spirit) will guide you into all truth” John 16:13, regarding obedience to the word of God as it is clearly stated, “But all these worketh that one and the selfsame Spirit” 1 Corinthians 12:11. The Holy Spirit has three (3) major assignments and that is exactly what He is carrying out today John 16:7-11.

Please, don’t misunderstand my points, as I am not dwelling on the Gift(s) of the Holy Spirit here.

What I have however discovered is that, it is the HUMAN IMPUTED laws, beliefs, doctrines and practices (outside the word of God) put in place by an individual founder of a particular church, to govern his own members, using his kind of beliefs 2 Timothy 4:3. This they do in connivance with the elders and leaders of that particular church, that have resulted not just in the proliferation of churches, denominational and nondenominational Christian organizations today, but also the architect of man’s WILFUL DISOBEDIENCE TO THE WORD OF GOD 2 Timothy 4:10. At this juncture, we must realize that God and His word (bible) are inseparable, be it the Old Testament or the New Testament John 6:63, 14:10.

Jesus Christ said “Go ye therefore, and teach all nations; Teaching them TO OBSERVE ALL THINGS whatsoever I have commanded you” Matthew 28:19-20. Jesus also said “Go ye into all the world, AND PREACH THE GOSPEL to every creature” Mark 16:15. He equally said “YE SHALL BE WITNESSES UNTO ME both in Jerusalem, and in all Judea, and in Samaria, and unto the uttermost part of the earth” Acts 1:8.

Brethren, in considering the above scriptures, we can clearly and confidently declare that, what Jesus asked us to do is to preach the message of the kingdom to every creature, not the planting of DENOMINATIONAL CHURCHES as it is obtainable right now. This therefore calls for the reevaluation of the aim, purpose and objective of establishing the church by Jesus Christ in the first place.

If we Christians must be sincere with ourselves today, we will discover that the level of willful disobedience to the word of God, lawlessness, waywardness and ungodliness in the world and particularly in the church of Jesus Christ, is the direct outcome of the divided body of Christ by the denominational churches. This is the bane of today's church because, the original purpose of Jesus Christ establishing the church, which was to make disciples of all nations Acts 1:8, have been defeated and until the individual organ of this body (denominations) begin to function exactly what it was created to perform, the body of Christ (church) should forget anything called UNITY. How can the church even dream of being united when we (denominational churches) do not practice nor obey the bible with the same spirit?

Although I lack the theological prowess to explain the concept of the church but, I don't think I need more than the bible to prove my stand here as well as the Holy Spirit my guide John 16:13. This is so because, the bible declared 'for the letter killeth, but the spirit giveth life 2 Corinthians 3:6. Therefore, I should be able to understand the word of God by the Spirit of God Matthew 24:15.

Now, in considering the stand of our Master, Jesus Christ, who actually owns the church Matthew 16:18, over the unity that existed between Himself and the Father, He prayed that the disciples will also continue in that same unity, after He (Jesus) might have died, buried, resurrected and ascended to heaven John 17:11. Even though it was Jesus that prayed the oneness prayer for His disciples, they were actually in one accord in one place after the ascension of Jesus Christ to heaven, and were finally baptized with the Holy Spirit in the Upper Room prayer meeting Acts 2:1-4.

Shortly afterwards, as the numbers of the disciples were now increased and continued in the oneness service, it then resulted in the breaking of bread with the brethren from house to house Acts 2:46. We now discover further the strength that this unity gathered among the people, in taming the division and murmuring which was about rearing its ugly head up to scatter the Apostles Acts 6:1-5. No wonder an adage declares 'there is strength in unity.

As the church increased in strength and numbers, a new trend to cover the whole world in teaching the truth to every creature emerged but with the SAME MESSAGE. The early Apostles particularly Paul, took several Missionary journeys than any other Apostle to preach the gospel of our Lord Jesus Christ. He sometimes faced the danger of shipwreck Acts 27:14, he was stoned Acts 14:19, he was imprisoned Acts 16:23-24, he was plotted against to be killed Acts 9:24-25, he was persecuted by the Jews Acts 13:50, he left his professional career and became a prisoner for Jesus Christ Philemon 1:1,9 among other things to pursue the instruction of our Lord Jesus Christ. In fact, Paul had to declare in 2 Corinthians 11:22-31 that:-

22 Are they Hebrews? so am I. Are they Israelites? so am I. Are they the seed of Abraham? so am I.

23 Are they ministers of Christ? (I speak as a fool) I am more; in labours more abundant, in stripes above measure, in prisons more frequent, in deaths oft.

24 Of the Jews five times received I forty stripes save one.

25 Thrice was I beaten with rods, once was I stoned, thrice I suffered shipwreck, a night and a day I have been in the deep;

26 In journeyings often, in perils of waters, in perils of robbers, in perils by mine own countrymen, in perils by the heathen, in perils in the city, in perils in the wilderness, in perils in the sea, in perils among false brethren;

27 In weariness and painfulness, in watchings often, in hunger and thirst, in fastings often, in cold and nakedness.

28 Beside those things that are without, that which cometh upon me daily, the care of all the churches.

29 Who is weak, and I am not weak? who is offended, and I burn not?

30 If I must needs glory, I will glory of the things which concern mine infirmities.

31 The God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, which is blessed for evermore, knoweth that I lie not.”

 His Missionary journeys saw him crisscrossing countries and continents with great fervour to preach the gospel message. After completing his journeys, you will see him again paying visits to the same people again encouraging them to continue in the faith Philemon 1:2,  or sending representatives to encourage the brethren Philippians 2:29, Colossians 4:10.

In all these things, denominational churches were never part of the teachings of the Apostles instead, you will hear of the church in such a person's house Colossians 4:15. This was the same case with John the Beloved during the revelation in the Isle of Patmos in Asia Revelation 1:4. The reference of the angels in the seven churches of Ephesus, Smyrna, Pergamos, Thyatira, Sardis, Philadelphia and Laodiceans, were addressed as 'to the angel of the church' Revelation 2 and 3. There was nothing like denomination of any sort when the message(s) of their individual work were been passed across.

Therefore, how come today that, instead of preaching the gospel as our Lord Jesus Christ had instructed, it is rather the preaching of ‘our church, my church, our pastor, denomination’, etc. Where is the teaching of the message of Jesus Christ to the world?

As I bring this message to a close, let’s consider some vital issues and examine critically, if what the various denominational churches are practicing today is geared towards the same goal and purpose.

CONSIDER THESE QUESTIONS:

1. Is the God of all the so called Christians the same God?

2. Are all denominational churches serving the same Jesus Christ?

3. Is heaven one and the same for all supposed Christians?

4. Did the Lord Jesus Christ give different teachings and truth for the different countries and continents of the world?

5. Are you sure the word of God (bible) have the same principles for all the believers in the whole world?

6. Is the final judgment going to be based on individual denominational church doctrines or, on the infallible word of God?

7. Do you truly love Jesus with all your heart?

Should your answer to the questions above be on the affirmative then, just know that the denominational churches as it is practiced today, is in great ERROR.

As I prepare to conclude this message in part 2, we shall be examining some few denominations around the world today, what they believe, practice and uphold in their congregations.

May the Holy Spirit interpret the details of this message to your hearts in Jesus name. Amen. God bless you all.

Lugard Osakpamwan Ekhator

End-Time Trumpeters: The Lord Is Coming Soon

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COZA PASTOR SCANDAL: Another Victim Steps Forward

Tutu Branch: COZA PASTOR SCANDAL: Another Victim Steps Forward: Yesterday the shocking story of young lady,  Ese Walters alleged that she had an affair with the senior Pastor Of COZA,  Biodun Fatoyinb...

Fornicators, Divorcees, Adulterers And Adulteress, Please Repent Now!!!

Fornicators, Divorcees, Adulterers And Adulteress, Please Repent Now!!!

Text: 1 Corinthians 3:16-17
16 Know ye not that ye are the temple of God, and that the Spirit of God dwelleth in you?
17 If any man defile the temple of God, him shall God destroy; for the temple of God is holy, which temple ye are.

If you are an unmarried man/woman, and you are engaging your selves in sexual affairs, please, stop it right now and repent. You are committing the sin of fornication. It carries the penalty of death and damnation in hell fire, should you fail to stop and repent of it right now.

Also, if you are a married man or a married woman, but you still engage and maintain extra sexual relationship outside your matrimonial home, with sweet 16s/sugar mummy and sugar daddy, you are committing adultery and it is wickedness against God and against man. Please, confess it to your partner right now because, no adultery man or woman will never ever enter into heaven. However, if you want to go to hell fire, a place of torment, pain and anguish forever with the devil and the fallen angels, just continue okay.

Likewise, if you are a divorcee and you are now married to another person, after divorcing your former wife/husband, know that you are in a GREAT DANGER. Please, discontinue that unholy relationship right now, immediately restitute and reconcile with your former wife or husband, so that you can save your soul from the torments of hell fire.

If you think what you are reading here right now is a strange teaching to you well, you will be doing yourself a disfavour and again, you surely have no excuses whatsoever regarding your sexual affairs you refused to tame. I pray you will obey the voice of the Holy Spirit right now and make the necessary amendments, so that you will be welcome home by the Holy Angels of God to heaven, should you die now or at rapture.

Finally, if you have more than one wife as a man, or you are a second, third or fourth wife to any man as a woman, you are a robber. Please, send the other wives away to their families and retain your first wife. Woman, go and look for your own husband and stop fooling yourself in another woman's marriage and home. God will help you to overcome this terrible mess and situation you have found yourself in Jesus name, amen.

Job 19:26 "And though after my skin worms destroy this body, yet in my flesh shall I see God:"
I pray for you today that, like as brother Job declared, you will see God at last in Jesus name. Amen.

Now, if you are involved in one or all of the cases above, kindly humble yourself, repent truly and forsake those sins right now. Jesus Christ is ever ready and willing to accept you back as His own dear child.
Say this prayer with me, holding with faith in Jesus Christ right now.

Dear Lord Jesus
I come to you right now
I acknowledge that I am sinner
I was involved in fornication
I committed adultery
I have been a divorcee
I am married to more than one partner
Please Lord Jesus
Forgive me all these sins and wickedness I committed against my partner and against you
Please give me your Holy Spirit to help me overcome these evils forever
My partner, please forgive me
Lord Jesus please make your own true son and daughter
As I now accept you into my heart as my own personal Lord and Saviour
Please write my name in your Book of Life
Give me the grace to be conscious of your presence around me everyday
Thank you for forgiving my sins
Thank you for making me your child
I am now your son and your daughter
I cover myself with the Blood of Jesus Christ
Thank you Lord God Almighty
In Jesus precious name I pray
Amen.

Hallelujah! Welcome to the family of God, where righteousness, holiness and peace reign.
Please, look for a bible believe, teaching and practising church around you and become a member, so that you can learn more about Jesus Christ, and to also be known of Him.
May God richly bless you.

Lugard Osakpamwan Ekhator
End-Time Trumpeters: The Lord Is Coming Soon
lugardosas@gmail.com

Your Body Is The Temple Of God Stop Defiling The Temple Of God With Idols

YOUR BODY IS THE TEMPLE OF GOD, STOP DEFILING THE TEMPLE OF GOD WITH IDOLS, IDOL WORSHIPERS WILL NOT INHERIT THE KINGDOM OF GOD

By: Sandra Imuwahen Igbinoba

June 17, 2012 at 3:57pm

Heavenly Father, Our Lord and Our God, I give you all the glory for this message, I pray that every lives that will read and hear about this message will be transformed and your name be glorified in Heaven and on earth in Jesus name, Amen. This message is written to The Church of Christ, all believers must know the standard of God for Holiness, The Church of Christ have become a center of attraction in terms of worldliness, the kingdom of darkness have polluted many churches, demons and evil spirits of seduction are walking majestically inside the church of God, what an abomination of the highest order, the church of God is a place of Holiness, not a place where demons would be sitting comfortably and mocking believers.

LETS THROW AWAY EVERYTHING THAT DOES NOT GLORIFY GOD AND LET US DO THE WILL OF GOD.
Hell is a terrible place, lets accept ourselves the way that God has created us to be so that we can be acceptable before God, trying to re-create what God has already created is a sin before God because He created us already in His own  image. 2 Chronicles 7:14; If my people which are called by my name will humble themselves, pray and seek my face and turn from their wicked ways, then will I hear from Heaven and forgive their sins and heal their lands.
1 Cor 3:16-17; Know ye not that ye are the temple of God and that The Spirit of God dwells in you? If any man defile the temple of God, him shall God destroy, for the temple of God is Holy which temple you are.

Revelation Chapter 17 and 18, talks about the activities of The Great Whore that sits upon the waters, she is also known as the Great Prostitute, Mother Of Harlots or The Queen of The Coast. The children of God are now defiling themselves with all her materials and merchandise, Our Body is the temple of God Almighty, we have no right to defile the temple of God, lets repent and turn from our wicked ways, lets always remember the gravity of disobeying the commandments and instructions of God. I've heard people say things like; God lives inside my heart, not on my body, so I can dress the way I want. Let's not deceive ourselves, if really the Spirit of God dwells in you, there are clothes you cannot wear any more, The Holy Spirit of God will rebuke you from wearing such things because the eyes of God cannot behold iniquity.

Romans 12:1; I beseech you therefore brethren by the mercy of God that ye present your bodies a living sacrifice holy, acceptable unto God which is your reasonable service. You can see it clearly here in the Bible, He didn't say only your heart. 1 Corinthians 6:19-20; What know ye not that your body is the temple of The Holy Ghost which is in you, which ye have of God and ye are not your own. {He didn't say only your heart, He said your body} 20; For ye are bought with a price, therefore glorify God in your body, and in your spirit which are God's.

1 Timothy 2:9; In like manner also women adorn themselves in modest apparel, with shamefacedness, and sobriety, not with broided hair, or gold, or pearls, or with costly arrays. When God really lives in a life, everything about that life changes, both the heart of the person, the behaviour and the dressing, the heart cannot belong to God while the body is still glorifying the devil, it is not possible because God does not share His glory with man not to talk of the devil. So lets stop self deception. In the book of Isaiah 3:16- 26, God warned us clearly not to defile our bodies with all these idols, please lets live according to the standard that God has given to us knowing fully well that there is a great punishment awaiting all the disobedient ones.

I use to be a Christian that believed that God does not look at our outward look, it is the deception of the devil to send souls to hell, the standard of God for Holiness remains the same. After My Encounter with Our Lord Jesus Christ, God started revealing to me all the things I must throw away if I really want to make it to His Kingdom in Heaven. To My greatest surprise, my outward appearance was among, I had to drop things like Jewelries, make-up, artificial nails, artificial hair {eg wool, attachments etc}, dyeing of hair, perming of hair, eye lashes, nail polish, lips gloss or lipstick, bleaching creams or skin lightening lotions, perfumes etc.

Someone might say; If I don't use perfume, won't I smell, it is the deception of the devil to make people continue using his seductive materials, you are the image of God, so you cannot smell at all. A sister tried to fight this message because of the perfume she saw there, she taught it to be an error for me to have included perfume, she forgot that most of those things were used for embalming the dead, majority of the women that used things like perfumes were prostitutes, they use it as instruments of seduction to call attention of men or women, many people are now using it for fashion and distraction even inside the church. Our Lord mentioned also that the women that poured ointments on Him was doing it for His burial. By the time the confirmation would visit her, then she know that this message is not my own making, she came out writing to the public regarding what she experience.

A lady told one of my sister in Christ that without make-up that she looks horrible, I pray that God would forgive her for saying such, we are the image of God, we don't have to curse or disregard what God had created in His own image. Before the devil brought all these demonic seductive things into existence, people lived and they didn't die for not using satanic materials, so we must appreciate God for all that He had created and we should not try to recreate ourselves for there is a punishment awaiting all that practise such. I had to drop trousers, mini- gowns and other seductive gowns, mini-skirts and other satanic seductive attire. God told us clearly in Deuteronomy 22:5 that women should not wear men's clothes, neither should men wear women's clothes. But this days, the devil had succeeded in deceiving many people telling them that men have their own skirts or that women have their own trousers.

I use to think all these things were Deeper Life doctrine, this is not the doctrine of any ministry, this is the standard of Holiness that God has set for all His children that really wants to make it to Heaven. But I must tell us this truth today that there is nothing like men's skirts or women's trousers, it is the trick of the devil to make people live in rebellion and send them to hell fire, as a child of God, people should not see or be able to point out your shape when you are dressed, it is very very wrong, it makes people to commit sin of lust in their hearts. You might say; what is my business if people want to commit sin in their hearts and fall because of my  dressing? Yes it is your business, anyone you make to fall, their blood would be upon you, this is what the word of God says, that is why you have to dress up yourself in a Godly way and drop the things of the world.

Gen 35:1-5; Confirms also that earrings are idols, if really God wants you to wear earrings, He would bore holes on your ears from your mothers womb. We have no right to pears our body nor decorate it with idols because our body is the temple of God. A messenger of God visited me on a night dream and he told me again how people are being thrown to hell because of all these things, please I beg us all that we should always think about our eternity, this is very real and hell is awaiting all disobedient children.

GOD WARNED US SERIOUSLY NOT TO LOVE THE WORLD
1 John 2:15; Love not the world neither the things that are in the world. If any man love the world, the love of The Father is not in him. Lets think about this and amend our ways, If you've read all these things and you want God to convince you more that worldliness hinders Heaven please go and pray seriously about it and by the grace and mercy of God, I believe it would be revealed to you. But if you've made up your mind to drop all forms of worldliness to do the will of God, please say this prayer.

PRAYER; Lord Jesus, I come before your presence, My Lord and Savior, I have come to realise that I've been living in ignorance and self deception, Lord please forgive me for defiling your temple, I renounce all my idolatry today, Lord please forgive me, wash me with your blood and accept me in your Kingdom, empower me from now hence to do your will, give me directions to follow from now hence and send forth your Holy Spirit to help me and perfect me, In Jesus name I pray, Amen.

If you've taken this bold step today, I congratulate and welcome you to the Body of Christ and I pray that The Holy Spirit will begin to minister to you from now on in Jesus name, Amen. Please send me a message and let me know you and also add you to prayer list and I pray that you will not go back to your vomit in Jesus name, Amen.

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Culled from https://www.facebook.com/notes/sandra-imuwahen-igbinoba/your-body-is-the-temple-of-god-stop-defiling-the-temple-of-god-with-idols-idol-w/162965373837015

Worldiness And Partying Spirit Is Eradicating Holiness In The House Of God

WORLDLINESS AND PARTYING SPIRIT IS ERADICATING HOLINESS IN THE HOUSE OF GOD

By:  Sandra Imuwahen Igbinoba

May 14, 2012 at 3:56pm

 

Heavenly Father, Our Lord and Our God, The God of Heaven and earth, we worship you Lord, we give you all the glory Lord, Our God we thank You for loving us so much and for giving us your only Son Jesus Christ as a sacrifice of Sin Offering, Lord Jesus Christ we thank You for all that you did for us on the Cross, Lord I pray that through this message, You will touch the lives of your people so that all humanity will know that You are The Almighty God, The God that remaineth the same forever, Amen.

THE CHURCH, The church is the same thing as the body of Christ when believers comes together in one accord, doing the things of God is known as church. THE HOUSE OF GOD, Any were we dedicate to God that we would be using for church activities, be it temporary or permanent till the Lord comes becomes the house of God. The house of God is suppose to be a place of Holiness, when people are coming into the house of God, they begin to check themselves properly to see if there be any sin in them and they begin to repent, they begin to cry God for mercy and they don't go back to their sin. But this days abomination has grown to the highest order, some even come to the house of God with their co-fornicators, they feel so free to come to the house of God even with their co-partner in sin, is this not an abomination to the body of Christ? Where is the fear of God?

Some do come out to spray money on the Altar or on the preacher when messages are going on, messages of repentance from sin will never motivate such actions, when the message makes people comfortable and does not condemn their sin, then you begin to see things like that. Lots of abominations are taking place in churches, people are so comfortable, they no longer repent from their old ways, lots of people don't focus any more on the coming of Our Lord Jesus Christ. Lots of people are making the sacrifice that Our Lord made on the cross be in vain without knowing it, some don't preach Holiness and repentance any more because they don't want to loose members, they are now preaching what the people wants to hear, what a tragedy..... we would all give account.

THE HOUSE OF GOD HAVE TURNED TO A PLACE OF PARTY
WEDDING IN CHURCHES, As we all know, there was nothing like church marriage in the Bible, every marriages mentioned in the bible were all done in the houses of the couples and by their families including the marriage Our Lord went to in the land of Canaan, We don't know how wedding crept into the church and became a church affair, some even brings couples that had already defiled themselves into the temple of God to join them together and defile the temple of God, God have mercy.

In the land of Canaan, Our Lord was just invited as a guest and not for Him to come and join them together because the only person that can join together is the father of the bride and the family{Deuteronomy 22:15-30} If God has given you the permission to do wedding in your church, is ok, make sure the two people involved have not defiled themselves so that the temple of God would not be defile. Also try not to turn the house of God to a party place, because the house of God is suppose to be a place of Holiness and prayers and worship and giving thanks to God.

CHILD DEDICATIONS.  We have to dedicate our children to God, {1 Samuel 1:24-28} the baby Samuel was dedicated To God. Also in the book of {Luke 2:23-39} When Our Lord Jesus Christ came in form of a man, He also was brought to the house of God after He was born. Dedication is ordained by God, but we shouldn't abuse things, let's go straight and dedicate the baby and if the parents wants party, then they should go and rent another hall for that and this would help remove worldliness in the house of God.

BIRTHDAYS. King Herod and King Pharaoh were the only two people that celebrated their birthdays in the Bible and two heads were taken along with it. {Genesis 40:20-22, Matthew 14:6} you can appreciate God for the day you were born, it's a great day, but don't turn the house of God a party show case place all in the name of birthday, the house of God is not meant for such things, The house of God is not for party, if you are the type that love parties, then go and rent a hall and withdraw your spirit, soul and body away from the wrath of God.

ANNIVERSARIES; It's good to give thanks to God, but lets try to eradicate worldliness in churches, everything we do in life, we will give account, when the church is too worldly, the people there cannot focus on Holiness any more, they won't think about the coming of Our Lord any more. Instead of people focusing on the coming of Our Lord and how to live a Holy life, they are now busy running around looking for to-match hair-tie, shoes, clothes, jewelries or what food to cook for the next party to take place inside the church.... God have mercy.

TRADITIONAL OR CULTURAL DANCES AND DISPLAY; I've seen occasions also were by church members are allowed to dress themselves with their traditional local attire to represent the various villages they are from and their local attire. Some of this dressing codes really do expose their entire body, some is just a piece of wrapper on their chest to their laps region and that's all with excess beads and hair styles that makes them look like demons. When we give our lives to Jesus Christ, we have to forget totally about the tradition of our father's house, the Bible is now our culture and tradition, we don't have to partake in lots of things any more { like new yam festival, in Nigeria } etc. Please we have to put a stop to all this things and if not they will start inviting their masquerades from their villages into the church, it might look funny, Some Christains do allow their children to wear Halloween clothes, is there any difference between that and masquardes? the devil know exactly what he is doing and we have to stop him.

FUNERALS; Some even use the temple of God for funeral occasions, they turn the house of God to a place to mourning the dead, lots of abomination now takes place in the church. Judgement is very real, we will all give account with all we've done even with the temple of God Almighty, For this reason let's make sure that the house of God becomes a place of Holiness and nothing more according to the will of God. Let's put to and end every forms of worldliness and things that do generate them in the house of God. Heaven and hell are so real, Let's always remember that whosoever defiles the temple of God, that God Himself would destroy. God bless you and please don't keep this to yourself alone, share with others..
Culled from https://www.facebook.com/notes/sandra-imuwahen-igbinoba/worldliness-and-partying-spirit-is-eradicating-holiness-in-the-house-of-god/142205862579633

MY AFFAIR WITH PASTOR BIODUN FATOYINBO OF COZA (Common Wealth Of Zion Assembly)

MY AFFAIR WITH PASTOR BIODUN FATOYINBO OF COZA (Common Wealth Of Zion Assembly)

By: Ese Walter
Thursday, 22nd August, 2013.
"If You Will Not Enter The Kingdom, Please Don’t Stop Others Who Are Trying To Enter" - Ese. This Is Heavily Worded And Loaded.

WARNING!
This article contains stories that most ‘church people’ don’t want to address. So, if you are one of those living in denial and covering up crap going on in the church, this is where you should stop reading. Thanks for stopping by.
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Now, for the rest of us, please sit down and switch on your open mind. I want to talk about something I have kept bottled up inside for longer than necessary. I have also decided to use real names, as my defense for any accusation of slander is justification. I tell the truth, the whole truth and nothing but. However, feel free to throw your doubt around but know that I am past the shaming game (where victims of abuse are shot down by blame) I am no longer a victim but a survivor who is sharing her experience to help others caught in same web of abuse, guilt and shame. We only get to live once right? So here, it goes…

I recently came to know this event too was abuse (recently here means about 6 months ago). It has literally been eating me up having to drive by another billboard advertising preachers, or hearing his name, or even trying to ask about the validity of the entire salvation story and whether or not there is a God that truly watches over his people. That being said, I’m just going to say it as it is. This is a recap of my affair with Pastor Biodun Fatoyinbo of COZA (Common Wealth Of Zion Assembly) Abuja chapter. This affair I have come to know as a form of abuse as you would see the different elements of abuse very present.

I met Pastor Biodun Fatoyinbo many years ago. I was getting bored of the church I was attending and someone suggested COZA. At the time, I had never heard about it. My friend said, go there, I’m sure you would enjoy the word. But he also gave me a strong warning. He said he would advice that I remain a member only and not join the workforce. I agreed. The first time I attended COZA, I felt it was my church and decided I was going to plant my ass there. About eleven months had gone by and I was still attending the services quietly and faithfully. I really did like the church. One day a worker in the church approached me that the senior pastor wanted to see me.

Me? I thought. Why would the senior pastor want to see me? Not the second man but the head nigga in charge? Ok na! I started to think my sin was oozing so bad the pastor could tell I needed Jesus. (Poor old me.) I saw him at the end of the second service (they had two services at the time) and he said to me that he would like me to work with him. I knew I had no intentions of becoming a pastor so I had to ask in what capacity. He said he’d like for me to join a department, preferably the Pastoral Care Unit (PCU).

A few weeks later, against my friend’s advice not to join the workforce, I was a PCU member. All of a sudden, I had some status in church. I was ‘somebody.’ Dress had to be on point, hair, shoes and what not… As workers, we were literally trying to outshine each other or so it seemed. Anyways, I felt like I was a privileged member of an elite circle. Hehehe. (It did feel good though, for the most part.)

About a year after joining the workforce, I was on my way to London for a Masters degree program that would last two years. As was the rule for workers travelling, I wrote to say I would be away for 2 years and Pastor Biodun Fotoyinbo asked that I keep in touch by sending him my number and email when I had settled in London so he “makes sure I continue in the faith” because according to him, people loose their faith when they leave home and he wanted to make sure I didn’t. So, on that note, as soon as I got a phone line in London, I was sure to call ‘my pastor’ to say I arrived safe, had settled in and also gave my phone number.

We had spoken a few times especially when COZA started to stream online. I always watched and would give feedback on quality of production and share a little bit on the challenges I faced settling in a new land. One evening, Pastor Biodun Fatoyinbo called me that he was coming to London and needed me to help him make some hotel bookings as the person who was meant to do it couldn’t get it done (this was rather strange as I had never been involved in his travel itinerary) Later that day, he said it had been sorted and my help would not be required but that he would like me to arrange a cab to pick him up from Heathrow. I was happy to help my pastor from Nigeria and even saw it as a privilege. (I would later come to learn that all of this was a calculated attempt to hatch a plan that I suspect was set in motion when I was asked to join the workforce.)

The cab guy was there to get him the next day and when he arrived, he called to ask why I didn’t accompany the cab to pick him up (again, this was strange but I stopped my mind from overanalyzing the situation as I knew I had no business with his visit to London) About two hours later, he called me and said he would like to see me. When I arrived his hotel, I called from the reception but he asked that I come upstairs. I got to the room and tried to stop my mind from thinking why I was going to his room. As he opened the door and invited me in, I had to speak to my heart to stop its palpitations. My better judgment asked me not to go into the room but the kind of reverence I had for Pasotr Biodun Fatoyinbo bordered on fear and I steeped into that room.

“Care for a drink?” Asked Pastor Biodun Fatoyinbo.

“No sir,” I said.

“You don’t have to be shy Ese, even if it’s alcohol, feel free and order what you want.” I wasn’t sure I heard my pastor asking me to order alcohol. I imagined it was a test and ignored the voice inside that was saying, “I’d have henny and coke please.” He proceeded to ask how I had been coping in London and if I was a committed member of any church. He also said he thought there was something special about me and wanted to know that I had not strayed from my faith. I really thought he had heard I was doing something I shouldn’t while in London but tried my best to focus on the conversation instead of my straying thoughts. He kept telling me to relax and feel comfortable with talking to him. After a few minutes, he asked that we go to the roof of the hotel as his room was a pent suite and had a connecting door to the roof.

While there, he sat on a reclining chair and asked me to come sit on his laps. This was a bit awkward for me and I froze for a moment as I asked why. He said he had told me to feel free with him and loosen up. I found myself strolling to sit on his laps. At that moment, I felt like a little girl who was experiencing something her mind couldn’t fathom. He asked me to kiss him and all I could think about was seeing him preach on the pulpit back in COZA Abuja, Nigeria, which was my home church. He again said ‘feel free Ese.’ And asked again, that I kiss him.

A few hours later, let’s just say, we were rolling under the sheets. It felt as though my mind had paused. I am not saying I was jazzed, (although it’s possible I was in some trancelike state and didn’t know it but I just was so afraid that I couldn’t say or think otherwise.) That was the beginning of this affair. A sexual affair that went on for a little over a week, DAILY!

I can hear somebody’s mind thinking, ‘well, you weren’t raped.” And I remember a pastor I opened up to when I couldn’t take all the mind games asking if I seduced him. No, I didn’t seduce him and no, I wasn’t raped but I felt trapped in this affair. Come to think of it, how could I have seduced him when I wanted nothing from him? I mean, I was too busy minding my business in London trying to get through with my masters program and I was overly comfortable. And even if I wanted to seduce anyone, it wouldn’t be a married man, not to mention a married pastor.

What I couldn’t reconcile the whole time, was how the same person who preached against the very things we were doing (i.e drinking in pubs, fornicating, committing adultery) was the same person endorsing and encouraging it.

At some point, I got really confused about what Pastor Biodun Fatoyinbo and I were doing that I had to ask how he handles it. I will never forget what he said to me. He said and I quote, “I will teach you a level of grace that you don’t understand.” My mind couldn’t fathom that somehow grace was enough covering for not just fornication on my path, adultery on his path and the many lies that was bound to follow what we were doing that was clearly abominable. I somehow dealt with the thoughts and fears that followed on my path. He had said to me that he wanted me to be his girlfriend and he would take me around the world and spoil me with money and things. Somehow, money had never been one of the things that motivated me (I am from a home where all my needs have been adequately met) In all my ‘badness’ through finding myself, I never did things I did for money but more of rebellion against rules and authority.

Pastor Biodun Fatoyinbo also said to me that he had a dream where I exposed what was happening to the media. Said it was all over the place and that people were calling me the girl that caused chaos in COZA. He also said I should remember the bible said to “touch not God’s anointed.” I immediately started to rebuke the devil and said I could never do anything like that. I was almost swearing with my entire family as I thought really I had touched God’s anointed by submitting my body to be used. Little did I know at the time that all of these were ways to mess with my mind and even manipulate my thoughts.

Fast-forward a few months later, I was back in Nigeria and my church had become uncomfortable. Anytime I sat in church and listened to Pastor Biodun preach, I felt shame. I finally sent him a message saying I wasn’t comfortable anymore. I was confused and needed to talk about what had happened. He said I should meet him to talk and I did. It was a really weird meeting for me especially when he tried to kiss me at our meeting. I finally realized at this point that he couldn’t help me. I thought God was angry with me and I couldn’t pray so I decided to withdraw completely from COZA. This was the beginning of my mental torture. I couldn’t talk to my family because already, I was the only one attending a different church and somehow my mom never liked the idea. As the days went by I tried to use drinking and smoking to cover up the deep shame and guilt I was battling with. But as soon as the high was over, the thoughts came back and I felt stuck like I couldn’t move forward.

I felt I had to talk to someone and I decided to speak to my then good friend, Ernest Akale but unfortunately for me, Mr. Ernest did not have the capacity to hold what I said to him. He broke down completely the days that followed and I found myself having to pause how I was feeling and what I was struggling with to help my friend be strong. After a while, he withdrew from not just me but his then fiancé and friends. I had to then tell the fiancé what had caused it (she suspected we were having an affair so I had to clear the air) To my surprise she was a lot stronger than her man and told me to suck it up (I’m paraphrasing). She said if she were me, she wouldn’t leave the church but stay to torment Pastor Biodun and collect money from him. Ok! That sounded extreme for me, as my intention was not to blackmail but to heal my broken self. Anyways, I finally found the courage to speak to my then unit head who said he was going to talk to Pastor Biodun but didn’t have the liver to do so. Before long, the story was spreading and naturally getting twisted.

I went to a new church and it seemed like the COZA bug had chased me there. The pastor would always refer to COZA as some example and each time that was done, it seemed like a spear was thrust through my chest. One day, I broke down in the service and started crying uncontrollably, as I couldn’t take another mention of COZA and the pictures it painted in my head.
Very long, boring story cut short, for the last 5 months I gave the whole church thing a big space and break. I wasn’t sure I believed in God. I wasn’t sure I understood what it meant when people said ‘Jesus saves” and I definitely wasn’t sure how to deal with the mental torture that was affecting not just me but my relationships with family and friends. I was very unstable, fearful and worst of all guilty. I got a chance to talk to Pastor Folarin of COZA Lagos Chapter, popularly called Pastor flo about everything. I made an effort to reach out to him because I realized the right thing to do was talk to an elder in the church and seek some sort of remedy to a wrong I believed had been done me. Instead, Pastor Flo said, Pastor Biodun had confessed to him and they had ‘talked’ about it and somehow that was supposed to be Ok. He asked what it was I wanted coming to talk to him about it when I did, I told him I realized what happened between Pastor Biodun Fatoyinbo and I was wrong and not just that I felt abused and manipulated. I also said I thought it was wrong for Pastor Biodun to go on preaching without taking time to deal with his personal character flaws. I said I thought he was danger to all the young women that attended the church. Come to think of it, maybe he meant if I wanted something monetary or material (as someone had suggested when I opened up to her) but the truth is, I never wanted his money (or is it the church member’s money.) All I wanted was to meet with him and have him accept that he misled me, betrayed his wife and the church he pastors. I wasn’t the only lady in COZA who had been a victim of his sexcapades and manipulative patterns but I was the one who could come back after months of struggle with not just my faith but also my affair with him. And I wanted to set things right. I wanted to talk to Pastor Biodun Fatoyinbo maybe for closure and I felt like I needed an apology because he played the “touch not my anointed” card to keep me locked in guilt, shame and fear when all along it was a calculated plan and I dare say, it started when he asked me to join the workforce.

Not to mention the audacity to talk about teaching me a level of grace I didn’t understand. I had no intention of understanding a grace that would permit me to go on doing things that were wrong and what’s worse having to carry the burden for almost a year.

Different surprising advises came up in the weeks that followed the rumour making rounds. I was told to hush because Pastor Biodun Fatoyinbo had been a cultist in the past and could send people to shut me up. All my so-called friends in COZA withdrew from me and treated me like I had the plague. What was worse was Pastor Flo finally saw my then pastor to ‘talk’ about what had happened with Pastor Biodun and lied that it happened once and was a mistake. My question then became, ‘do these people even care how broken I had become?’ ’do they care about the emotional and spiritual welfare of the people they were pastoring?’ The sad answer was NO. Most of us old members of COZA kept leaving but they couldn’t care less. What was important was to keep growing the church and having more and more cars with stickers that read “More than enough.”  Back then, I always felt horrible when I saw another car drive past me with the sticker. I was breaking, I was struggling but no one could help. All they could do was ask me to hide so Pastor Biodun’s goons don’t hurt me. And then the interesting one was if I had evidence to prove my claim. Let me just say here that, it isn’t a claim, it’s a confession to free me from all of the guilt and shame I have had to live with for no reason at all. (That being said, I have evidence to prove all I have said here, the latest being a 58 minutes recording of my meeting with Pastor Flo a few months back)

This is my confession and I cannot begin to describe how much weight has been lifted off of my shoulders just pouring the truth out about what went down. So, to all my ex COZA friends gossiping about me, get your facts right. To those who said they’d help me deal with the pain but didn’t, I forgive you, I have learnt how to deal with it and I am doing just fine. To those who fear for my safety saying Pastor Biodun would send people to shut me up, I really have gone past fearing for my life. To live is gain and to die is Christ (or how does Paul say it again?) And to the only person who ever supported me through it all, thank you, I am learning to be brave. Please don’t think I am perfect in all of this but in line with living my authentic life and putting all forms of abuse behind me, this is where I press the stop button and stop the bleeding. This is where I break the silence and call the church to stand up for what it has been commissioned to do. If you will not enter the Kingdom, please don’t stop others who are trying to enter.

I still remember when I used to nurse the idea of digging up emails, text messages, hotel billings (as once I used my card to pay for his room when his master card failed to work) to prove there was an affair. It was pathetic. Why for the love of heaven was I trying to dig up evidence? I am satisfied setting the record straight. I am ready for any shaming or bashing that would follow because the truth is, because of what I have suffered and come through, I am really not moved by what people say or think about me anymore. I am a stronger woman and a damn abuse survivor seeking to connect with other victims of abuse to show them how to deal with the shame, hurt and guilt and how to come out stronger. Turning their mess into their message.

I am Ese Walter and I have gone through all forms of abuse from family, boyfriends, my ex pastor and some strangers not to break me, but so I stand and so I qualify to help victims. My scars have qualified me and when all is said and done, I will still be standing. I AM WOMAN, I BEND, I DON’T BREAK!

Cheers to the freaking weekend!!!
Culled from http://esewalter.wordpress.com/2013/08/22/my-affair-with-pastor-biodun-fatoyinbo-of-coza/